Disheartened, Frustrated & Angry #54

img_0685Lately I’ve really been struggling with what to share with you all. I think in the last week, almost two I’ve been subconsciously distracting myself to refrain from sharing anything on my blog, because I just haven’t had anything uplifting, enlightening or inspiring to share. As the saying goes, honesty is the best policy so I’ve decided that as usual I’ll just be honest with my blog family, hoping that someone will understand my feelings. Some of you may even be feeling the same way.

I have spent the last few months wishing that God had made me a little different. I wish that God had not made me a person who is so deeply affected by everything that is going on in the world around me. I really don’t want to keep writing about all the extreme negativity going on in the world, specifically in the United States, but unfortunately right now that’s what is constantly on my mind. Several of you in my blog family know me personally and know that I am not a hate filled person. I am a quiet person who tries to live life getting along with all others even if I disagree with something you’ve done or said I try to avoid conflict with others. I feel like most of the time I am pretty easy to get along with. I wish it was that simple for everyone.

Last Saturday I laid in bed once again watching news coverage of yet another mass shooting, I’m sure many of you were watching. Since I am being honest I have to admit that I laid in bed crying because I’m so tired of living in a world where people use guns to murder other human beings simply because they believe in something different or because they are of another race. A week earlier there was the man who decided to make and send bombs to politicians through the mail, thank God that situation wasn’t as horrific as it could have been. Oh let’s not forget the two people who were killed in Kentucky simply because they were two African Americans at the grocery store. Yes, that’s the world we are living in, all of that happened within what, a week.

I just do not understand how someone can be so filled with hate that they want to kill others simply because they are different in some way. I wish that I understood what’s going on in not only the United States, but all over the world, the hatred that exist is appalling to me. Why is it that we don’t take the time to understand each other? We are all so vastly different and in 2018 nearing 2019 there are still people in this country and in this world who can’t seem to understand or maybe just refuse to accept it. Apparently that’s the way that God wanted things to be, God made us all in his image (read Genesis 1:27) obviously God didn’t mean for us all to be exactly the same.

Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. once said “Let no man pull you low enough to hate.” I don’t want to live my life hating anyone for any reason and as naΓ―ve as it may seem I wish I could cure all the hate that has existed in this world for far too many generations. We live in a time where you aren’t completely safe anywhere, not your house of worship or your own home. It makes me angry and sad all at once. Something is wrong in this world and we have got to fix it. The hate and division has got to come to an end.

I really don’t have the vocabulary or full capacity to tell you all just how massively frustrated I am with the state of this country and the world around me. I want my five year old nephew to be growing up in a better world. I know that right now he doesn’t even understand any thing other than the life of a happy kindergartener, he’s not yet focused on what’s happening in the world around him, but by the time that he is I want this country and this world to be so much better. In ten years when my nephew is a teenager I don’t want him to be living in a world where young African American males are being killed by the police or where young people who have been bullied choose to go into their schools and murder their teachers and classmates. I don’t want my nephew living in a world where Jewish people are afraid to go and worship at their synagogue or where African American people go to Wednesday night bible study and can’t be Christ-like choosing to invite in a stranger because that stranger just might be a young man who has been taught to hate and has malicious intentions. I want my nephew and all the children in this country and throughout the world to have better leaders who actually genuinely care about the welfare of others. I am angry and frustrated because the world has been in this state for far too long and it doesn’t seem to be any change near, it seems each day its only getting worse. Change has to come soon, its imperative.

That’s just my perspective!πŸ’œ

14 thoughts on “Disheartened, Frustrated & Angry #54

  1. lporter18 October 31, 2018 / 9:26 pm

    Honesty is the best policy my friend. You are not alone. I’m a very compassionate person too and I also get caught up in all of the worldly news. If only we can love more and hate less. I feel it starts in our homes with parents teaching children and from our elected president of the United States. It’s important to live by example. Keeping writing from the heart, mind and soul. Someone will hear their personal message. Peace and blessings!
    Latisha πŸ’–

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    • Zena T. November 1, 2018 / 1:54 am

      I completely agree with you Latisha, the world would be a much better place if we would love more and hate less. I definitely try to always be a good example to others. Thank you so much for taking a moment to read my blog. I appreciate you.πŸ’œ

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      • Anonymous November 1, 2018 / 10:29 am

        I’m on the same page as you are, Zena. We will just have to continue to pray for better times.

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  2. pilotangus October 31, 2018 / 9:53 pm

    Hey Latisha!

    This was a refreshing read and not boring at all. In fact, it looks like you got quite a bit off your chest – which is important! I concur with everything you’ve said and a lot of the same issues have been on my mind lately too. In fact, that’s exactly what prompted me to start my own blog yesterday. Without that, I wouldn’t even be here reading your blog and writing this comment. Anyways, my blog is a personal challenge for myself to spread kindness for the next year. More specifically, small random acts of kindness like holding the door for someone, letting someone in front of me in the Starbucks lineup, or even purchasing a stranger’s drink order. I hope to instill positivity, happiness, and positive change into this world through these small gestures. Furthermore, I get so excited by the thought of someone passing on these gestures in their own life. To think of how many other people could benefit from a single person doing something nice for somebody else. It’s refreshing!

    I’ve thrown you a follow and am looking forward to your next blog post.

    Cheers!

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    • Zena T. November 1, 2018 / 1:47 am

      Pilotangus,
      I’m not sure why you called me Latisha, I am sure that was an honest mistake, regardless thanks for taking a moment to read my blog. I really appreciate it. Good luck with your blog. A year of random acts of kindness is an awesome idea.πŸ’œ

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  3. Bandia Blog November 1, 2018 / 11:28 am

    It can be really hard to comprehend what is going on in the world, I sit and wonder myself. You show real empathy and that’s what makes the world better, I think. Just a little empathy towards other people really can make the world of difference to someone’s life. I love your perspective on things, it’s really quite refreshing to see someone talk about these issues the way you do!

    Brenna – bandiablog.com

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    • Zena T. November 1, 2018 / 10:44 pm

      Brenna, thank you for such kind words. I do really try to have empathy for others, because I feel like people just need to know that someone cares and understands. Thank you for taking a moment to read my blog.πŸ’œ

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  4. Quirky Writes November 5, 2018 / 11:55 pm

    I can totally understand what you must be feeling. I’m not an American but I do know what goes on there. And other places, and my own country as well. And quite often I find myself thinking about the same things you have shared in this post. It’s really sad, and we’re living in a sad world. But just know that you are perfect the way you are, and the only people who need to change are the one who think others deserve to be killed just because they are different or have different beliefs. Thank you so much for sharing this post. Life is not all about happiness, and such posts can be a lot more beneficial and uplifting at times.

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    • Zena T. November 6, 2018 / 12:14 am

      I was a little apprehensive about sharing this post, but comments like yours make me glad that I decided to share it. Thank you so much for taking a moment to read my blog. I really appreciate your comment.πŸ’œ

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  5. Lindsey November 8, 2018 / 9:39 am

    I could have written this myself. I am really sensitive to the world around me also. Sometimes it can really wear you down.

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    • Zena T. November 8, 2018 / 9:55 am

      Lindsey, it’s great to know that someone is similar to me. It can get pretty overwhelming because it seems like something awful is happening on a daily basis, sometimes I have to stop watching the news or looking at social media. Thanks for following my blog and for taking a moment to read this post. I really appreciate you joining my blog family.πŸ’œ

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      • Lindsey November 8, 2018 / 10:05 am

        Me too πŸ’œ Looking forward to more of your writing!

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  6. thereznation November 12, 2018 / 2:57 pm

    Very interesting post! I’m looking forward to reading more of your writing. Not everything has to be uplifting! One of the biggest problems with society is that we are afraid to be real with each other in fear of being labeled negative. It’s really become quite preposterous!

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    • Zena T. November 16, 2018 / 12:43 am

      Thank you for taking a moment to read my blog. I really appreciate it. I am definitely being honest with my blog family about how I feel about everything that I write about. It’s not all uplifting, but I hope that it’s at least enlightening and thought provoking. Welcome to my blog family.πŸ’œ

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